Never felt so lost, or so free - A classic 309.28 if you ask me.
August 11, 2005
You know, this is the oddest feeling. Yesterday, I put Andy on a plane to Florida and cried myself to sleep - and today I went back to living my life. My heart might be aching, but I can still laugh. My whole world might be upside down, and I might be scared shitless - but I’m doing ok. This sounds suspiciously like adulthood to me.
I have to balance my money coming in with my money going out. What a concept! I have a stuffed Tigger covered in Andy’s cologne on my bed that I can bury my face in when I get lonely. But Karlie is close by, and I have another new girlfriend who is just adorable and who I love spending time with.
Doesn’t mean it’s hard. It’s like freshman year all over again, as a matter of fact. But I know I’m capable of doing this with a little help.
I think my current emotional state qualifies as a 309.28 - Adjustment disorder with mixed emotional features. Yes, I memorized the DSM-IV. I’m a nerd. I accept this. I accept a lot of things. Just giving it a name helps though.
I was just diagnosed with the same illness. Tell me what to expect.
Charles: I’d hardly classify it as an illness, more like a state of being. You’re going through a lot, accept that it will be hard and stay true to yourself. You’ll be okay.